i can’t believe you’re 14 already.. i can’t believe it’s your birthday again. it seems like just yesterday i was celebrating you’re 13th birthday haha. how are you doing up there, baby boy? are you happy? i hope you are. i wonder if you can see me from up there. are you disappointed in me? do you hate me for all the mistakes i’ve made? patric.. no matter what, i want you to know, i love you.. with all my heart. i’m sorry for everything i’ve ever done wrong. i hope that you could look at me and see a good big sister that loves you so much. 

i hope you’ve grown up well. i know you have a bunch of friends to celebrate with. i have so much to say to you.. but it’s like i can’t express any of it in words.. patric, just know that i love you, okay? i wish that you are here with me, but God obviously need an angel like you by his side. be good. be happy, always. please watch over me from time to time. please forgive me for all the mistakes i’ve done and will probably do. make sure you look over mom and dad.. and don’t forget kuya, okay? i really love you, patric. happy 14th birthday, again. <3